This is all a giant leap for me. I haven't "stepped out" of MY broom closet to all of those around me. Now don't get me wrong, I have know for a while what I was and who I am. I think some where inside I have known all my life. I just have had trouble adjusting to telling the world, well not the world just those around me. I could shout it to the world, but I'm not down for being lynched in Salem.
I grew up living the dream childhood, playing outside, laughing, dance classes, private singing lessons, theatre, and seeing ghosts. Oh wait... that isn't quite normal. I never knew it wasn't. I found out quite early that there were odd quirks about me. I could hear the voices in the wind. I could feel the hum of the tree's life. I knew how to solve problems that were not necessarily mine to fix. My brain flipped a switch and I knew which answer went with the problem that had never been presented to me, just thought next to me. I never found this weird or odd. I just thought I was more mature, more adult than others.
As I grew older imagine my surprise to find traces of magick in my blood line. On my mothers side I had a great great grandmother who was a pure blood Seminole Indian. She and her brother were both considered to be Shaman, the in between of the human and spirit world. They healed souls and wounds. I have a great Aunt who has been said to have odd dreams, she sees things that are to happen. Now these dreams have always been called that, dreams. But I wonder if there was just the fear of what was happening to her. I understand that fear. I am willing to strive against it to be who I am. Times are different now and I have a chance.
As Lili said we are here to educate and illuminate. We are here to explain that its not all cackling and cauldrons, or old ugly hags. Yes Lili we are probably the Poster Children. But hey Maybe that is not so bad.
I am still striving to find my foothold in the door of my closet. I know where I want to be, I see the light on the other side and the cauldron boiling... I am just not sure how to make my leap of faith and magick. And when I do What shoes should I wear?
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